fear, healing, love
Why was I afraid of this?
Why did I never try this before?
Afraid may not be the right word, but I certainly have been apprehensive. I just had no interest in lifting weights. I did not think there was any need for strength training. I just couldn’t wrap my head around it all. Partly because I have never had a gym membership and partly because I was running regularly. I thought I was doing enough.
And then I got hurt while out running my 10 miler the week before my second half marathon. I must admit, I wasn’t following my training plan 10o% as the plan was winding down. The summer heat took its toll on my long runs and then I hurt myself.
The recovery process from knee injury was long and grueling. During that process I sprained my ankle (for the 9billionth time) and then had to add more time to my recovery. Then, with the advice of my physical therapist and ortho, I decided it was time for surgical intervention.
I was out of work for 7 weeks.
I was in therapy for 2 months prior to surgery with about a 2 week break after surgery. Then I started therapy up again 10 days after surgery when I got my hard cast on. PT started with my knee; while I was in the hard cast I was to put no weight on my ankle. After 4 weeks with the hard cast, I had the cast removed and immediately started more intense therapy for the knee and ankle. My leg was so weak and just standing on it was work. After the cast was off, I had almost 2 months of therapy.
I had a lot of physical therapy!
I did not go through ALL of that to not continue my good work!
In the last few weeks I have truly embraced lifting weights. Lifting gives me such an amazing feeling. I am using what I learned in physical therapy and taking it to the next level. In PT, I did a lot of squats and lunges and stretches…and now while doing the #NROLFW I am doing all those exercises and then some. And yesterday, I realized my lunges are getting more fluid and easier. I am also able to drop my knee lower to the ground.
I am making progress!!
I am making GREAT progress!!
I am in a good place! Lifting weights has helped me feel comfortable and confident in my body. It is also helping me reflect on some things…like running, healing my body, and what I really want to do for me. My whole focus has changed since my surgery. I have noticed changes in the way I think and feel about my body and my workouts. I want to move my body even though I still worry I may get hurt. I feel best when I am moving my body regularly.
It’s weird, when I am lazy and not working out I feel lazy and sluggish and fat. I have been working out consistently, I have been pushing myself and really stepping out of my comfort zone and I feel great about it. I feel great about me. I have the same body but I feel like the non-lazy body is way sexier. I also tend to eat better!
How about that one?!?
The one thing I feared the most is helping me heal and love my body.
I once feared weights.
Now, they will heal me!
I have found a new love!